It's been 2 years since my last post. Just skimming through, let's see. December 2020. Midst of my university suffering. What has changed?
Also, click the mysterious links to listen to the same songs I was listening to while writing this!
Let's catch up from Dec 2020 to now.
University? I made it. I passed with Third Class Honours (Merit), not ideal but judging the struggle I've been through, it could have been worse. I know people who got worse. I was aiming for Second Lower at least but I missed it by 0.01. Unbelievable right? I failed my IPPT this year by 1 second. Who knew the margins of success and failure were so thin?
I digress. Going back in time, after my academic semesters in NTU, came my final semester. Internship or Final Year Project. A choice that every university student faces. The answer was easy for me.
IMAGINE DOING MORE PHYSICS LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Internship it was. The choice was simple. But the execution? Jesas. The number of trials and tribulations I went through. It took me till round 3 to get a singular offer. The school itself was desperate to send off their useless students on their final semester (me) because if they didn't get an offer, they would need to scramble to find some shite company to babysit their toddlers. I myself had tried to source for companies (aiming high initially, since I once interned in CIMB Bank) but was promptly brought down to Earth after finding that nobody wants my useless ass with a useless degree.
The fun part about having a Physics degree, is that the whole working world wants to ask you the same question.
"Why did you choose this job? Why did you end up here?"
Bruv, I need to feed my family you cucks. Physics graduates, spoiler alert, have to eat. It's mad I know, I could have never known right? Here's the funny part. Hold your breath, you will never expect this. They also have families and a bunch of them aren't rich. They actually need to work under the capitalist regime to sustain themselves. If you're still not unconscious from shock by learning this, then I applaud your mental strength.
Anyway, what does that garbage have to do with internships? Well, the interviewer for this particular spot didn't ask me many questions. He instead talked a lot about what the role has to offer. Which sounds not that bad right? I didn't think too much about it. But in hindsight, I understood why.
Nobody wants this role. They take anyone.
song to listen to when you're depressed
What was this role? What on Earth did I get myself into? Well, to summarise it, I became a teacher. Teaching what? Teaching coding. Programming. To who? Pre school to secondary school students.
Sounds like a decent job innit? Well, let me introduce you to the tale of my experience in company R.
Time check. July 2021. Company R was a SME with a small ass office, with around 10 staff (including the owner and his wife). Their old office in River Valley was dusty, carpeted but cramped, interesting but isolated, old and crumbling place. In the middle of apartments, where you would expect rich cunts to have big ass bungalows to be, is an office with a massive stack of boxes, robots, and of course, tons of useless crap, in the 2nd storey. I remember the first day, going there as a nervous intern, unsure of what to expect. It's my first time working for a SME, and my previous internship was a rather relaxed one because the senior workers were not able to teach me a lot to help them in their daily work. So I went in with an open mind. Let's hope we will get a comfy job, air-con, chill, and we outtie.
On my first day, I was introduced to a bunch of people there. There was admin, 2 heads, 1 for preschools, 1 for primary schools and secondary schools. And then 2 other interns.
That's it. That's the staff.
I spent a large part of the day cutting paper into shapes for preschoolers. And learnt how to use their contraptions for toddlers. It's interesting to put it nicely, but to put it crudely, a complete waste of time for anyone learning practical job skills. I came out of the first day hoping that this will not be a useless journey for me. At least in CIMB, I got to relax even if I didn't learn much. Please, let that be the minimum.
who says songs must have lyrics?
(Checks google timeline)
Oh wow. I remember something. I actually left to deliver a box on the first day. I left on a Grab to be precise. I was sent out to deliver one box to a preschool in Yishun. Inside this box was essentially the items needed for the preschool trainer to use for their lessons. I just had to find the preschool, which was located in the void deck of these newfangled HDB blocks that were labyrinth inspired, and leave it there for the instructor to use when it's time for lessons. Expenses, thankfully covered. I left the first day thinking about how it was nice I came off work earlier at 5. But this was just the start of the saikang and logistical work that was coming.
(oh shit this will be an extremely long post. I'm only at Day 1. Looks like Part 2 is needed)
Day 2
(I could have swore the events happened on Day 2 but according to google timeline it's Day 3...)
Day 2/3/godwhenwillthesufferingend
Blah blah it's the same shit as Day 1 lmao cutting paper, being useless.. hol up the education head for the preschools S is talking to someone on the phone. It's not good.
Some instructor got Thanos snapped and they are missing 1 person urgently. I wonder who could replace them? Maybe a list of backup instructors that could help to go on urgent notice? Reschedule the lessons? Worse comes to worse, one of the experienced people could go instead?
"Shawn, I need you to do something for me today"
F**K off. Seriously? You're calling me to do it, when I have 0 experience. 0 knowledge on how the lesson should go. Never even went to such classes before, not even shadowed any teacher before this. First time teaching anyone in fact.
"It'll be ok, you'll be only the assistant teacher. But I need to tell you some things. You cannot touch any students (remember this part, this will be funny later on when I get PHYSICALLY ABUSED by them instead) and you should not help them to go to the toilets, ask for the preschool teachers instead."
Well, fair enough. It's like every male out there is a pedophile right. "It's to protect yourself" Of course it is. Society says we are monsters. No exceptions. But I'm not here to rant about that. So let's move on.
new song i started listening to
The incredulity in me was unbelievable, but being a small fry on his starting days of the internship, do I dare to voice my dissent? I came in with an open mind (just like entering NS LMAOOO oh boy that brings back some fresh PTSD if I do say so myself) and I was certainly open to learning new things. But this was akin to throwing me to the lava.
"You'll just need to take pictures and send it to us on the Whatsapp group for their magazine"
If you say so...
Do you want to know what song have I been playing on loop every day?
(To be continued...)
