You're reading my blog now. You should know who I am, right?
Or so you think... Muahaha.
For the sake of keeping my memory fresh, let me introduce myself.
I'll try to not post anything that can be used against me, Internet is a scary place man.
Hello, I'm Shawn.
Nicknames : Shawny, Shawnylimey, Shawnprawn, Shawnyyyyyyyy, Nwahs, Shawnbread, Nwahsmil,
Unwanted nicknames : Sean
I am going 18 tomorrow. I like mapo tofu and cheese. Nasi lemak, fried rice, satay, rojak, that malay potato thing, soya bean are all great stuff. I hate that green slimey vegetable that gives disgusting juices. To a lesser extent, brinjals,
I listened to Linkin Park since primary school and am still a big fan of them. I secretly try to rap like Mike Shinoda, and I feel like I can be a rapper with more practice. (like 1000 years) Also a fan of Girls' Generation, especially Choi SooYoung. It's really a strange thing, because sometimes when I look at photos of her (without bangs) my heart just stops for a moment. It's like I fall in love again and again. If I can find another girl like that in real life I think I can just be her slave forever. I like electronic, rock, classics, and have a biased view against pop songs (keke). Old songs by the Bee Gees are just great stuff. My mother played them when I was younger on our big ass radio player thing and thus I got to know them.
I am lazy. I think I have stale breath, which is not the same as bad breath I hope. My throat gets infected very easily when I eat heaty food. I have a weak body. Trying to push myself to exercise but refer to weakness No.1 and then you realise why I am like this. My tongue spits fire to people, sometimes on accident. I never mean it when it happens. Never.
I think I am actually good hearted. Alright, alright, stop the laughing. I commonly refer to myself as Evil.Shawn because I feel like I'm nasty as &!@& and my tongue is forked. But, I do feel like I am good-natured and when there's a problem, if I can help you, I will help you. I am also a strategic planner. I tend to think a lot, thus I always map out situations in the future and think about them. I also am witty. Alright this is beginning to sound narcissistic. But it's a funny feeling that I have. When I talk to people, if the subject clicks with me, I can turn anything into a joke, anything into an insult, anything into something else. I just have to be in the mood and in the correct scenario. I wonder if I can become a host if I honed these skills. I find it enjoyable and relaxing when this happens. Banter is fun.
I love to play football. I'm not the best at it, and my parents aren't fond of it as it caused me to injure my arm twice. But it's my passion and if my friends are playing I'll try to join in. I look up to Buffon who is the most expensive goalkeeper in history and made countless insane stops. However, I usually play as a defender. In fact, Chiellini is my trainer. Loljk, I am Chiellini.
I have had at least 2 crushes, 1 which was really, really major. But I was a stupid dumb ass niqqa bodoh bitch nub and I kind of screwed it up, looking back I felt like I was drunk then. This adds to my regrets pile +1. Interestingly to note, during this time I felt like I was really happy. Maybe love has such a strong effect on people. I can say that my first crush propelled me to get a medal in the cross country. LOL after that year I had no motivation to run fast.
I think I have too high expectations of my future girlfriend, partially because my mum makes every other woman in the world pale in comparison, Thanks to her, I think my girlfriend will be a robot. She will be the most well loved robot though.
I generally prefer girls with long straight hair. I would like their eyes are big but sharp (as in physically its big but it shows sharpness in their eyes), and a great smile. I think I will look at their face first rather than their body. Ah, such a shallow person I am. Of course, her insides must be at least as gold as mine. If she doesn't respect my family, out she goes. She's gotta be good with her money, sincere, humourous and playful. I will sacrifice my MH acc for the perfect girl to be mine. Seems legit.
I like to play games. Oh no, gg!! FPS games like Blackshot, MMORPG like Maplestory constituted my childhood. Now, I play TF2, League of garbage and I still play Maple! Ha! Gayyyy!!! Childish!!! You don't even lift weights you faggot!!
Oh, I'm scrawny. Not as bad as last time, but still being 1.77m and thin as bamboo makes you feel like one. I like to run though. Hope I can improve my appetite and gain more mass though. Currently around 60kg I believe.
Shit, this post is getting worse and worse. My writing skills have deteriorated. GP.. noO!!!
Evidently, you can infer that I am rather insane and random. It's what makes me unique I guess. It's hard to make friends like this too because I always have the urge to add something random LOL. Such is my life man. Like potatoes.
I'm an INFP. I think you can infer more about me through that too.
Bet you didn't know some of these facts :
-I weighed 25kg in lower primary
-I was 1.2m then.
-I have eczema.
-I was a little bitch when I was younger.
-I was garbage then
-I have only used the letter I to start this list
-Combo breaker
-I am afraid of girls crying
-I am even more afraid of them getting angry.
-I cry quite easily. Sensitive New Age Guy yo. Or just pussy. lol
-I am a sucker for cute stuff.
-I think I will become a slave to my girlfriend.
-I still hope that I marry Choi Sooyoung Mark II.
-I can't think of anything else.
Hope you learnt a bit more about me. I'm not the type to open to anyone. But I'm stupidly opening up to the world here. Lol. I'm 18 already.
Cheers to my life, a toast to my growing up, a toast to my learning, my experiences. A toast to my toaster. 18 years wasn't easy, here's to the future.
Sunday, May 31, 2015
1 day before I turn 18
It's been a long time ain't it? Just checking in here to keep things fresh and alive...
(swats flies away)
Alright tomorrow is my 18th birthday, and I actually wanted to write a post about bermudas but nah shit will be stirred up and I think I would instead write something more general.
18 years after I'm born and here I am, typing this after a game of Team Fortress 2. I cracked my knuckles and shake my hands (sounds weird) a bit. It's time to cut into the main topic for today.
What is life?
WOAHHH!! SHAWN GETTIN' DEEP IN THE NIGHT YOOOOOO
Ahem. After going through so many life experiences, I feel like I have many things to say about my life, and yet nothing to say too.
Many times, I find myself having flashbacks of embarrassing moments or moments of regret in which I wish I had made a different decision. This causes me to feel some sadness in me, even though I know that it is in the past and I can't do anything about it.
I read somewhere about trying to overcome this negativity, and some article said "Try to remember an embarrassing moment of your friend." It may be easy to think of some prominent examples, but trying to think of more is increasingly difficult. Thus, it can be said that since you can't remember embarrassing moments of others, it is unlikely that others can remember embarrassing moments of you. Well, that comforts me a bit.
Still, this negativity happens to me quite often, while I rarely think of good memories. The holidays, hanging out with Xuan last time in his house, my primary school antics, even more secondary school antics, it's all just bits and pieces of things that make me smile. My poor memory also makes such memories become fuzzy and distorted, such a dampener man.
In the 18 years, I felt that I grew through every action I made. I feel quite fortunate to have embarrassed myself at this age when I'm young and stupid as compared to when I grow older. Imagine myself holding in my shit when giving a meeting. Damn. It's gonna be such an awful situation. So, I had that experience when I was young and stupid!! LOL at least now I know what I should do.
They say that when you're young you should do as many things as you want as you have the time and energy to do so. How much of things that I would like to do have I done? I guess I had lead a rather fulfilled life. I could have had tread a different path, had a different attitude, and ended up in a worse situation that I'm in now. I'm grateful that I am here, right now. Thanks to my family, my pillars of strength. Thanks to myself for being such an evil genius.
I find that the learning aspect of life is the most important. And that includes not just book knowledge, but soft skills, hard skills, medium skills too. It's enjoyable when you learn something (of course preferably not the hard way) and I think that's what keeps life interesting. If you have lost the drive to learn, life becomes the same routine. That's what I think saps the life of adults. If only they have more energy and time to try something new, they will definitely have a different outlook on life.
Damn, I feel like this post is really a bit strange. It doesn't have my essence in it. But I'll still post this. Let's have another post on a more personal level.
(swats flies away)
Alright tomorrow is my 18th birthday, and I actually wanted to write a post about bermudas but nah shit will be stirred up and I think I would instead write something more general.
18 years after I'm born and here I am, typing this after a game of Team Fortress 2. I cracked my knuckles and shake my hands (sounds weird) a bit. It's time to cut into the main topic for today.
What is life?
WOAHHH!! SHAWN GETTIN' DEEP IN THE NIGHT YOOOOOO
Ahem. After going through so many life experiences, I feel like I have many things to say about my life, and yet nothing to say too.
Many times, I find myself having flashbacks of embarrassing moments or moments of regret in which I wish I had made a different decision. This causes me to feel some sadness in me, even though I know that it is in the past and I can't do anything about it.
I read somewhere about trying to overcome this negativity, and some article said "Try to remember an embarrassing moment of your friend." It may be easy to think of some prominent examples, but trying to think of more is increasingly difficult. Thus, it can be said that since you can't remember embarrassing moments of others, it is unlikely that others can remember embarrassing moments of you. Well, that comforts me a bit.
Still, this negativity happens to me quite often, while I rarely think of good memories. The holidays, hanging out with Xuan last time in his house, my primary school antics, even more secondary school antics, it's all just bits and pieces of things that make me smile. My poor memory also makes such memories become fuzzy and distorted, such a dampener man.
In the 18 years, I felt that I grew through every action I made. I feel quite fortunate to have embarrassed myself at this age when I'm young and stupid as compared to when I grow older. Imagine myself holding in my shit when giving a meeting. Damn. It's gonna be such an awful situation. So, I had that experience when I was young and stupid!! LOL at least now I know what I should do.
They say that when you're young you should do as many things as you want as you have the time and energy to do so. How much of things that I would like to do have I done? I guess I had lead a rather fulfilled life. I could have had tread a different path, had a different attitude, and ended up in a worse situation that I'm in now. I'm grateful that I am here, right now. Thanks to my family, my pillars of strength. Thanks to myself for being such an evil genius.
I find that the learning aspect of life is the most important. And that includes not just book knowledge, but soft skills, hard skills, medium skills too. It's enjoyable when you learn something (of course preferably not the hard way) and I think that's what keeps life interesting. If you have lost the drive to learn, life becomes the same routine. That's what I think saps the life of adults. If only they have more energy and time to try something new, they will definitely have a different outlook on life.
Damn, I feel like this post is really a bit strange. It doesn't have my essence in it. But I'll still post this. Let's have another post on a more personal level.
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