The eternal struggle

So far, in my life I think there has been ups and downs. But why do I feel that life is so painful?

Is it because I'm a pessimist? Am I really one? It could be.

Or is it that I see pain everywhere. My health, pain. My studies, pain. My family, I see their pain.

Even worse, NS is the worst pain currently. I don't know what to expect in the coming weeks.

I guess you only can feel pain when you live. I should be happy that I feel these pains. Right? Only when I attain nirvana then I'll be free from the pain.

Of course, I don't want to compare between other people. Definitely, the suffering of people in third world countries are infinitely more than mine. I should not even be complaining. 

Does this lessen my pain though?

Thinking of the future, I wonder if anyone will want to share my pain. Will anybody be able to accept my pain and help me alleviate it? 

Maybe my 2D waifu can stop the pain. LOL.