I'm lonely~~

Writing this update before the mid year tests.

I've been with my class for a couple of months already and I think my classmates are relatively alright, half of them are quiet, a quarter normal (I consider myself normal) and a quarter having voices with elevated decibels.

I'm not one to flame people, especially when it's only been a couple of months LOL so I'm going to have to be more vague in my post. But I highly suspect anyone from my class would stalk me to this extent though.

Here's something I found out in JC : Put in a students from 50+ secondary schools into a common institution and you'll get a fusion of culture, crazy crazy fusion. It's immensely overwhelming, after if realised the people around me are not the same usual Andersonians I see.

I also now understand better why ex-Andersonians miss Anderson so much and refer it to their home. (I'm referring to my secondary school btw heh) I don't exactly feel the same way and to such an extent, but an honest opinion is that I find Andersonians more welcoming, more sincere and 亲切, more warm than the people I met in JC. It's a bit strange, I'm not sure if it's the so called 'Anderson' culture (referring to both here) or if it's my social skills declining. The Andersonians just exude an aura of "You can be my friend" , even if, you know, we do not talk at all! Or maybe its the fact that we are a smaller batch as compared to the whole freaking J1 cohort.

I wonder how other secondary schools are like. But I like Anderson's one just fine.

Back to my friends, cough, I honestly wonder if I have made any new friends. Seriously.

There's a clique of boys in the class, an immensely obvious and strong one. But I'm not in it. From my class, I talk to only a couple of guys often. They are the more approachable ones, more open to me as well. Thus I hang out with them relatively 50% of the time.

I'm not sure if I have a clique, the guys I talk to tend to drift around too. It's not as close as my group of friends back in primary school. Definitely.

My CCA, definitely closer by a bit. Because of the competitions my team go through, the rage that happens during programming, I think that's what makes us closer. Well, I do spend more time with my classmates though...

So what's the problem? I hope I can seam into society and.. get friends? It makes it seem like a possession.

Keke, or I can just become entirely anti social and focus on my studies. If I can't help it why force it...