1 day before I turn 18

It's been a long time ain't it? Just checking in here to keep things fresh and alive...

(swats flies away)

Alright tomorrow is my 18th birthday, and I actually wanted to write a post about bermudas but nah shit will be stirred up and I think I would instead write something more general.

18 years after I'm born and here I am, typing this after a game of Team Fortress 2. I cracked my knuckles and shake my hands (sounds weird) a bit. It's time to cut into the main topic for today.

What is life?

WOAHHH!! SHAWN GETTIN' DEEP IN THE NIGHT YOOOOOO

Ahem. After going through so many life experiences, I feel like I have many things to say about my life, and yet nothing to say too.

Many times, I find myself having flashbacks of embarrassing moments or moments of regret in which I wish I had made a different decision. This causes me to feel some sadness in me, even though I know that it is in the past and I can't do anything about it.

I read somewhere about trying to overcome this negativity, and some article said "Try to remember an embarrassing moment of your friend." It may be easy to think of some prominent examples, but trying to think of more is increasingly difficult. Thus, it can be said that since you can't remember embarrassing moments of others, it is unlikely that others can remember embarrassing moments of you. Well, that comforts me a bit.

Still, this negativity happens to me quite often, while I rarely think of good memories. The holidays, hanging out with Xuan last time in his house, my primary school antics, even more secondary school antics, it's all just bits and pieces of things that make me smile. My poor memory also makes such memories become fuzzy and distorted, such a dampener man.

In the 18 years, I felt that I grew through every action I made. I feel quite fortunate to have embarrassed myself at this age when I'm young and stupid as compared to when I grow older. Imagine myself holding in my shit when giving a meeting. Damn. It's gonna be such an awful situation. So, I had that experience when I was young and stupid!! LOL at least now I know what I should do.

They say that when you're young you should do as many things as you want as you have the time and energy to do so. How much of things that I would like to do have I done? I guess I had lead a rather fulfilled life. I could have had tread a different path, had a different attitude, and ended up in a worse situation that I'm in now. I'm grateful that I am here, right now. Thanks to my family, my pillars of strength. Thanks to myself for being such an evil genius.


I find that the learning aspect of life is the most important. And that includes not just book knowledge, but soft skills, hard skills, medium skills too. It's enjoyable when you learn something (of course preferably not the hard way) and I think that's what keeps life interesting. If you have lost the drive to learn, life becomes the same routine. That's what I think saps the life of adults. If only they have more energy and time to try something new, they will definitely have a different outlook on life.

Damn, I feel like this post is really a bit strange. It doesn't have my essence in it. But I'll still post this. Let's have another post on a more personal level.